There almost isn't a day where my life is free from problems. I can't remember the last time I had "just a happy simple day". I honestly can't. I try to turn a blind eye to whatever that's happening around me but people start taking me for a fool when I do that. Why??? Is it so fking hard to treat others how you would like to be treated. These days I'm trying to build my walls up high to block those who continuously hurt me over and over again. I'm sad to say that most of them are actually my family, the people I love. My whole life I lived it pleasing my parents especially. I conformed to theirs and society's expectations of a normal teen/student/young adult. But only to realized I've actually wasted all those years of my life. Especially when they weren't worth conforming for. And it was silly to have trusted them right from the very start.

I want to be so done with them but my heart doesn't allows it. I've been so soft hearted towards them, even they know I won't do anything to harm them. But they say pain changes a person. I've been oppressed by them so much the next step is probably to step up and fight back. A person who made a mistake once isn't stupid. But if this person continuously makes the same mistake over and over again, she/he's definitely stupid. I'm stupid, I've been treated like a fool countless times but I swallowed it down each time. I'm done letting all these slide. It's time I start fighting for myself before I lose my sanity.