Today i had physio and i was really depressed after that. The exercises were super painful and then my arm movement is still very limited even though its been nearly 3 weeks. I took bus and some woman knocked into me and she kept apologizing. I felt stupid why the heck have i become so useless.
I thought of everything; 203 wanted to plan a class outing to uss i was excited cause i've never been there. But it was short lived, my arm, my stupid useless hand how can i play all the rides. Maybe can play merry-go-round only, do uss even have that LOL. Even Lynnie told me she wasn't used to me like that cause in the past i was independent but now...and at times she forget, she keep apologizing. But i don't blame her and its not her fault at all. There was this day the 203 girls found out about my op, they kept telling me to take care and gws. My parents are very protective of me when we go out. They keep telling me, eh careful ah, or like they use their body to block the other people so they won't knock into me. My father take leave to accompany me to see doctor. He even help me order food or take things for me-that is totally impossible in the past. I even patch things up with my sister. Its like my whole family including my maid is always there to offer their help to me. It sort of help to make us closer cause we weren't that close. My grandmother calls everyday without fail to ask how am i, whether my wounds are still painful or not. I can't go cycling, play games and stuff when i'm out with my fav boy anymore. Most of the time, we stay at home watching shows tgt. And when we are out he help me carry all my stuff. I think if i wasn't in sling people will think i'm bullying him la!
But at the end of the day i'm really thankful for all of them- my fav boy, my friends-esp Quekky, Lynnie and even Dj and my family! They made me see the meaning of "those people that will stand by you no matter what." I feel sad when i think about my shoulder/arm but i feel happy and blessed knowing that i have 臭臭, these bunch of true friends and family that will be here for me no matter what :)
我好怀念以前行动很方便的自己, 但我也知道是因为这场手术使我拥有了更多.
