I'm on self-declared off sling!!! HAHAHA.
4 more days till i officially can be off sling. I'm glad to see myself improving so far. When i look back at yesterday, nothing much seemed to have improve. But when i look back at day 1 everything is so so so much better. From not being able to lift my arm at all to moving quite freely now. But there is still pain every single minute since day 1. The only difference is the pain varies. And i'm kind of getting use to the pain day by day :) Week 1 was really bad. Day 2 was the worst day of my life, day 1 was quite bad also but at least some of the anesthesia was still there. As for now i feel as though there is no physical pain i cannot withstand, but of course i know its not the case la. Till i meet the next worst pain again(i hope i will never though)
I will be stronger day by day. There are times i really feel like giving up, days i was really pissed at the whole world especially myself, i told es i regretted going for the op; he scolded me, at times i felt like amputating my arm lolol, but thn i remind myself of the reason why i chose surgery in the end(after so many opinions, so many options, so many arguments with es esp, booking of surgery date in jan and cancelling it, some more dislocations, and so so so many more things that happened) I want to play my sports again. I can't imagine myself having to sit still watching people play for the rest of my life. I want to play again, without any hesitations, without having to worry my arm will come out. That's why i made this decision again. I don't regret it maybe except when the pain hits me real hard-like during physio. Day 37 and its still worst thn 2 years ago, i know it will keep getting better and i really look forward to the day my arm will be like before 2 years ago. Before that incident.
"Every now and then that inner voice will challenge you, confront you and try to hold you back, and that's when you need to let your heart guide you."
