Woke up to a text msg that left me crying for a
good 30mins.
“There are wounds that never show on the body that
are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.”
I realize that after these months,
8months and 3months, I never once got over it. The wounds are still as raw as
ever and the slightest touch of it, leave me tearing once again. Why must we
lose people that mean so much to us? What is the use of having all these bonds
then when you know that one day you'll lose them. And the pain will be a
thousand or even more times more than any physical wound you can ever have.
I miss them, i really miss them.
And each time my regrets just hit me and i really feel like shit. I feel like
i'm the worst person on earth. I ask myself why why WHY??? Why didn't i do what
i wanted to do, why did i take them for granted, why didn't i cherish them as
much as i would like to. But then i know time cannot turn back, i can never have
them back. All i'm left are memories, regrets and pain, that remind me they
were once here, they were once a part of my life. Each of them were lessons
learnt. The main lesson was to never take the people i love for granted. They
taught me that, and i'll remember it for the rest of my life. But sometimes i
still take people for granted and i really dislike that side of me. I won't
stop trying, some day i will cherish each and every one of them. I promise.
Really wish i could turn all the sadness into strength to be determined to
cherish the people i love.
I'll never forget them. Really
hoping that they are in a better and happier place.
Ireallyhopeyourgrandmotherisinabetterandhappierplacetoo.
“I give myself a good cry if I need it. But then
I concentrate on the good things still in my life. I don't allow myself any
more self-pity than that. A little each every morning, a few tears, and that's
all. ”
Sad stuff aside.
Although we couldn't go out till too late today, it was still an awesome day nonetheless :)
Today was Slack > Teoheng > Astons > Guitar + slack again ;)
At Astons
Introducing my guitar teacher...
My teacher. HAHAHAHA
I want to play guitar but i don't want to go through the learning process. Make sense? Of course not. HAHAHA but i'm determined to learn. I will!!! :D
And this boy gave me my birthday present early cause we can't meet on my birthday. Guess what he bought..
The H&M bag that i wanted to buy but i didn't cause it was quite ex!
I can really say he's mad. HAHAHA. I super love this bag!!! <3 And he kept telling me happy birthday but its not my birthday yet. I'm still young. I still can't get over the fact i'm 18 soon. I can't be that old O: HAHAHA.
THANK YOU SO MUCH MY DEAR BOY I LOVE YOU(not because you bought the bag ok><)!!!!!
Hope you like your pink shirt. HAHAHA can you imagine him wearing pink??? I can't really so i bought him a pink shirt:P
Tmr will be a stay at home day. I have to start packing for the Taiwan trip cause this week will be kind of busy. Have to see doctor to get my inhaler too what a chore :( Really disliking my poor health :(
Goodnight x
