Always hiding behind. Because you don't want to look bad, because you don't want to bother people. But in return, you bother yourself, you bother the people around you. That doesn't make you great. Because you should have took care about yourself first. Even if you don't want to take care of yourself you should take care of the people around you before you even take care of others. Hate how you make my/the people around you, life harder because of your actions.
Charity begins from home. "A person's first duty is to help the members of his own family. Any act of goodness can be in the right direction only if it spreads goodness all around, but a good act must be started from one's own environment. Everybody should do good to his family members first. Charity to others at the cost of bother/pain to the people around you can never be appreciated."
Always keep that in mind.