Don't exactly know what I deserve but I don't think I deserve disappointments and countless broken promises from the people I love especially.

When I try my very best and it isn't enough. It's super tiring too.

When it gets too exhausting, the inner demons start coming out. And I just can't seem to drown my demons, they know how to swim. 

They are tempting but I'm holding on. Holding on, to the line of restrictions but I'm afraid it won't last for long if all these continues..

These days, when I'm sad I can no longer cry about it. I just can't. Tears refuse to fall. In fact, this feeling is worst than bawling my eyes out. 

I try so hard to be positive but I'm almost always shot down the very next moment. Is it that difficult just to be positive???