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| I'm scarred for life :( |
I'm back from op and everyday's been hell for me.
The wound hurts like mad every second, there are nights i wake up crying. I can't sleep peacefully at all, i wake up in the middle of the night, having to ice my shoulder to numb the pain. I'm a burden to everyone including myself.
But i'm so thankful for my family, my friends and more importantly, my favourite boy who was the first to see me in the ward when i just woke up. He who requested to take leave again even though his higher ups initially said no. And he who spent his entire Sunday with me even though it meant staying at home. He came to my house with gongcha, gummies, tauhuey and my fav eggtarts which i was craving for when i was in the hospital. He brought funny shows to watch with me so that i would laugh and not think of the pain. And when we're out he would "protect" me, make sure no one knock into me or i knock into them. Although being so useless really piss me off to a certain extent, i can't help feeling really blessed.
I love you my dearest boy ♥ :)
Coincidentally he has off tmr and he will be accompanying me to polyclinic to change my dressing cause my wound is freaking bleeding!!! :( Hopefully its normal and not the stitches broke and stuff zzz. I'll be strong, i won't let the people around me worry about me anymore. Even though the exercises are painful, i won't stop doing, i will recover and i'll be stronger thn before :)
I'm coming for my long awaited activities like sailing and stuff soon :)
