First 2012 training

Sailed for the first time in 2012 today. Super tiring. But at least it was a fruitful training coz it was tracey who trained us. BUT... she was really naggy and it kindda pissed me off. I need to change this stupid problem of mine - when someone order me, i tend to go against it coz i really hate people ordering me ard and when someone nags at me, nothing will go in coz i will switch off. But overall, still a fruitful training since i learn some new stuff^^

Went to see my grandmother in the afternoon. The nurse say she refuse to eat for 2 days alr. I feel so sad when i see her suffering like that :( Really really really hope she will get better. Please please please ><

"It's 2AM and she's lying on her bed staring at the ceiling. All these thoughts in her head. Just so confused. Doesn't know what to do. In need of someone to talk to, but doesn't know who. So she just lies there. Her eyes fixed on the ceiling, with her headphones blaring. But nothing she's listening."